Susahnya nak berubah...

Hari ini sudah 2 Rejab... Semalam ingat nak puasa, bangun pagi ni teringat ada ayam goreng KFC semalam yang belum dimakan..
Terfikir sejenak,... Patut buang saja atau makan ayam tu... Terasa 'sayang' kalau buang... Nanti membazir pulak...
Tapi nak puasa.. Macam mana ni????
So, nak tak nak... Tak jadilah puasa... Esok la sambung puasa Rejab..

Alhamdulillah... 
For the first time in my life, I felt very Syukur to Allah for give me the opportunity to feel His present. 
I had a disease for 3 years. For the last three years, I always ask myself. 
Why I had this disease?
What is my fault that make this disease as my punishment?
What I had done?
Is this the punishment for all my sins?


But today, when I was reciting the Quran, I realised. 
That I had forget the present of ALLAH in my heart. Whatever I done is always for myself. 
I forget to say Syukur for His Nikmat. 
I forget to say Syukur for all the test that He gave. 
I forget to remind myself that ALLAH is looking at me. 
I forget to choose His Redha in whatever I do in mylife.


Astaghfirullah....
I'M an INSAN.
A forgetful person. 


But Alhamdulillah, 
Today, my heart said 
" How long did you forget about ALLAH?"
"You prayed 5 times every day but, did ALLAH in your heart?"
Then, I realised.... I HAD FORGET ABOUT ALLAH...


Astaghfirullah.... I have to come back to the right track. 
ISLAM IS MY LIFESTYLE..
ALLAH AND RASUL ARE MY LOVERS...